i have two life..

what will you do when you have these two kind of life.

1. Super boring.. emotionless,loneliness..whatsoever~
2. Full of problems. big responsibilites. sadness+anger will then lead to craziness. ignorance is not applicable

if you can choose, no 1 or 2? which one you prefer?

well, i need both. when your heart has too much painful, sometimes you need to be alone. eventhough it is endlessly boring, it is necessary to heal the pain, to erase the scar. and you would always have time to pray and silently whispered to yourself, "everything will be okay, you are a big girl now. you know what to do. Allah will always be close to you"..

but please. don't choose to live in hatred.don't keep your feeling bottled up. Or you will end up hurting a person that loves you the most.

and i am begging,please..

[this is not my love story.. this is my life]

STATIK

Assalamualaikum.

It is march 2010 rite now. how fast time flies. after my last post, i went to Johor for 3months. Having a great time there. I met new friends. create new memories. I stayed at UTM. yes, i have once dreamt to study there while i was in school. such a beautiful place. i will miss this place. erm. ayat berbunga ni mmg memenatkan. okay next paragraph plis~

Guess what? okay.. i am not working yet..
i ask again. GUESS WHAT ? haha. i am a tutor!!

for those who are my good friends. they would say, "WHAT?"
but for those who have a blood related with me, they would hug me and say, "welcome to the club!" "yeah, that's my girl! im proud of you"~ or "AT LAST, pheww~"

explaination why they have two different reactions.

location 1: village5 UTP (undergrad )

my friend: gee, aku tak paham la soklan ni. aja aku leh? ko kan dewi.
me : um. yang mane.o yang ni. ak pon tak paham. huahuahua. okay jap. um. cane nak explain ea. [smbil tu conteng2 kat paper.. staring at those paper.. end up blur].. ko paham x ak tulis ni?
my friend: [staring at those paper silently].. Gee, senang cite.bak ah assignment ko.
me : la.. xckp awal2. hakhak.. xyah pening2.
my friend: okay ak da paham. cet, senang je. maceh gee.

location 2: umah ALam Damai terchinta

(ini bukan dialog)

mak: cikgu math yang bertukar menjadi cikgu biologi yg hebat
kembar : cikgu lepasan math yg serba boleh, ajar sejarah, geo, bm..
kakak: pernah berangan nak jadi lecturer. but stuck with petronas
and my mak2 sedara: majoriti cikgu dlm pelbagai bidang.

what im trying to say.. i have those blood. the teaching blood. but unfortunately im not a good one. and i realized that since my primary school. i kept on avoiding this career.

"oh mak, plis,let me be what i wanna be.." "kamu nak jadi ape?".. "anything but a teacher"..

Location:UTP

i am currently tutoring 1st year student, statics & dynamics subject.every friday. they are my first students. kesian mereka. hhehehehe... wish them luck!