My family always talk about petronas and dot dot dot.. Well, I can't run away from that rite. So one fine day .. my mom talked bout how fortunate my sister is. Great salary, bonus, medical insurance and so on. And suddenly my mom stopped talking. She said..
"Kalau la yah dapat. Tapi tuhla. tade rezeki.."
And suddenly i felt down. Sedey tibe2. Bukan ape. im doing fine rite now. Bila orang start compare camtu rasa sedey plak. Its like sume orang pity kat i yang tade kerja yg tade boipren n tade duet byk ni. Like i choose to live like this.
I know my mom wants the best for my life.. it just.. i feel regret that she can't see what i've achieved so far. Well, maybe she can see that, but i can feel that she's worried bout my life. All mothers are like that rite?
I learnt alot in this 2 years, when i was at the bottom of my life. I passed through all depression, heartache, failure, and well.. heartbroken again.. and at this stage, while most of my friends doing well to earn money for their future, i learnt how to be a better person in the future.. i thought i will never change. But there you go.. i learnt it from the hard way.
Nak sambung cakap lagi tapi dah Azan subuh dah.
Last but not least,just a reminder to myself, be grateful and thankful to Allah of what u have. Only Allah knows what is the best for our life, isn't it? :)
p/s: since when i sensitip bab2 ni..? huhu.. sensitif sekejap je. sebab nnti ada je orang lain cakap benda yang sama. hehe. just chill sudey
xpe po.g..lain orang lain jalan cerita hidup dia.sabar yer.i noe what u feel.
ReplyDeletesometimes, orang kesian kat kita tak keje/tak kawen/tak sambung studies padahal kita happy je dengan hidup kita.think positive okay.