i have two life..

what will you do when you have these two kind of life.

1. Super boring.. emotionless,loneliness..whatsoever~
2. Full of problems. big responsibilites. sadness+anger will then lead to craziness. ignorance is not applicable

if you can choose, no 1 or 2? which one you prefer?

well, i need both. when your heart has too much painful, sometimes you need to be alone. eventhough it is endlessly boring, it is necessary to heal the pain, to erase the scar. and you would always have time to pray and silently whispered to yourself, "everything will be okay, you are a big girl now. you know what to do. Allah will always be close to you"..

but please. don't choose to live in hatred.don't keep your feeling bottled up. Or you will end up hurting a person that loves you the most.

and i am begging,please..

[this is not my love story.. this is my life]