Ｄｒａｍａ ｓｅｂａｂａｋ

(5.25 pm Sunday)

"Thanks Jah!"..

Aku dan Faris terus tergesa-gesa keluar dari kerete myvi oren itu.

"Argh. Lambat lambat lambat. aku dah lambat! lagi sejam oi" bentak hatiku.

Setelah bersalaman-tp-xlaga2-pipi dengan Faris yg ingin pulang ke Penang, aku pula menghala ke Perak. Di stesen Tasik Selatan kami berpisah.

Aku terus menuju ke stesen ERL dengan harapan ia lebih pantas daripada tren-slow-nak-mampus itu.

"Berapa?"

"RM4.20"

"hehe.laju neh. 10 minit je mak kate," bisik hatiku sambil tersenyum.

Setelah sampai di tempat menunggu, tiba2 kedengaran sesuatu..

Kelihatan tren-slow-nak-mampus selamat tiba d stesen ktm, iaitu hanya bersebelahan dengan ERL.

"What de.. die smpai dulu. hampes~"..

[18minutes...] terpampang d skrin.menunjukkan aku perlu menunggu 18 minit lagi.

"Oh.Great!" aku mula bosan.

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(5.55 pm)

Tren sudah pun sampai. Aku cuak. kelihatan seperti mat saleh menguasai tren tersebut. Aku pantas masuk ke dalam gerabak. Mata ku terpaku melihat seat kosong itu. Mamat sebelahnya tidak aku hiraukan.

Tren sudah pon mula bergerak. Aku kelihatan resah gelisah. mungkin kerana tiada view menarik ingin dipertontonkan. Tapi, tiba-tiba aku tersedar. seperti ada reflection di cermin hadapan ku ini.

"Ohoho. comey gak aku ni.."smbil tersenyum..

Perlahan2 aku cuba mengalihkan pandanganku ke sebelah.. curi2 melihat kelibat mamat sebelah ini.

"OMGee!! dia pandang cermin jugak..", panik aku seketika.

Aku terus mngalihkan pandangan ku ke monitor LCD d atas. Akan tetapi, sempat juga aku mengecam mamat itu. Gaya seperti traveller, dengan bag and bagpack. black shirt. hurm..

(6.05 pm)

akhirnya, tren itu perlahan2 berhenti d stesen KL Central. Mat2 Saleh sudah mula beratur di hadapan pintu tren. Tak buleh jadi neh". aku terus berdiri.

"Dik. Ha..Kan dah jatuh tu. Bahaya btol. " jerit pacik dengan tiba2..

Jatuh? ape yang jatuh? handphone? tangan ku pantas meraba2 seluar. sambil kepalaku berpusing clockwise and anti clockwise.

Handphone ada d belakang poket seluarku. Apa yang jatuh?

"Dompet tu ha. nasib baik ada orang sambut." tambah pacik itu lagi.

Dompet? aku terus memusingkan badan ku 180 darjah. kelihatan mamat sebelah itu dengan selambanya memegang dompet kulit ku.

Belum sempat mamat itu berkata2.. aku terus cepat2 mengambil dompet itu dan beratur di belakang mat saleh. Badanku kaku. Berlagak seperti tiada apa yg berlaku. Tapi dalam hati ni, malu xusahlah cerita. sangat~~~~

Belum sempat pintu habis dibuka, kakiku pantas mengatur langkah seribu. beria2 menaiki tangga. hiyak2..

tercungap2 tapi aku yakin mamat itu serta pacik itu takkan berjaya mengejarku..

dengan pantas aku memasukkan tiket . 7 saat berdiri di palang itu..

"Cepatla bukak..." getus hati ku.

"adik, tiket transit belah sane ye.. " kata petugas itu.

erk?..

"Transit kat sane la.." suara asing kedengaran d belakang ku.

Sape plak mamat menyibuk ni..?eeee..

Bila ku pusing, mamat baju hitam itu betol2 dibelakang ku.

Camne die ade kat belakang neh? aaaa... malu2..

Dengan lostnye aku mencari lane transit. akan tetapi dengan tak malunya ak menyelit gak depan mamat itu. dengan harapan agar aku pantas keluar... hahah

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"Time kasih la awak tadi. seb baik perasan."

"Eh, same2. nak gi mane ni? rushing je.."

"Nak naik bas. eheh. awak ni dari mana..?"

"o. saya baru smpai dari klia tadi.."

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eh, aku berangan rupenye.hehe. xsempat berkata2.. biarlah ia hanya drama sebabak antara kita.

Hasil nukilan,

Gee the traveller.

LamPi=Lambat Pick Up

Hi !.

i met someone today. i mean yesterday and today. At first he smiled at me and I took 10 seconds to process that situation.

Who is he?

Why is he smiling at me?

Do I know him?

Where did I met him before?

Did he said something?....


... with my kening bercamtum, I dont get iT!.

okay. a clue!


Where am I? : cafe.

What is he wearing: erm. kain pelikat+shirt.

What does he look like?: a guy, happy, smiling, not so tall not so thin. so so..



Okay..



Again, where are you exactly?: UTP! duh~

Now after 10 seconds.. I get it, he is my student. of cos he is my student. Im in UTP for god sake.

11 seconds has already passed, he still smiling. okay young guy. i already know you. you may leave.

30 seconds...

Wait a second..I remembered HIM!

there was a time in class where he 'tembak' me with a question where I dont have the answer and and i was panicking and and I dont know if he dont understand my teaching or what or or am I confusing him or what.. I DONT KNOW.. since then he just smiled.. =__=

It took 40 seconds to know why is he smiling.

the weird me.

I am weird. I think. But my friend said I am unique. I guess. But in bombastic word you can call it, peculiar.

One of the things I enjoyed most, when I get attacked after the presentation or when I go to the interviews. Ooh. my heart beat faster, and I can feel the adrenaline rush. I hardly succeeded but I never want to stop.

Sometimes, hurm.. most of the time, I will release my feeling in the lift. Of course when there is no one around. When the door starts to close, I will start jumping,screaming,cursing,kicking the wall, and dancing?hahah. and when door's open. i will be quietly walking like "perempuan melayu terakhir" and acting like nothing happened. crazy. oh.correction. i am unique~~

And you know how I can fall asleep faster? When I heard people excitedly talking and gossiping and laughing, my eyes will slowly start to close and ......zzz. it is like a lullaby to me..

I like the way I am. No need to change it.

Thank you

Salam,

Last week i have the most tiring week in my whole life, however i feel relieved. Alhamdulillah.. everything was fine. we have given our 100% energy,commitment to make this event successful. I have promised to myself that i would put aside my heart and soul aside for awhile and did everything that i can do to help. it just get so irritated if somebody do not appreciate it and acting like a boss. but its okay.. Thanks for coming. :)

from my sis engagement from october till june, it has been 8 months. In 8 months, i learned a lot. really. Alhamdulillah, im still alive and looking for a better life, better future and be a better Muslim. Also, trying to improve my knowledge duniawi and akhirat. Alhamdulillah, Allah put me in a situation where i could reflect myself and keep on thinking of HIM. thank you Allah. Thank you for answering my prayer. Thank you for the guidance. Thank you for giving me a chance to live and always be in my side. Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim.

As a student, i mean, postgrad student, i need to read a lot of books.. i mean. journals and so on. i am wearing a very thick spectacles rite now. "urgh, berat nyer"..

so i am afraid i will be blind someday..

So, i dont read.

I end up doing revision for my teaching class every friday. I can say i like it. Well, they called me Dewi Meki during my undergrad for a reason. It doesnt means i am genius, but i like doing assignments. it can be addicted sometimes. it is true.. I am a NERD.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH

i have two life..

what will you do when you have these two kind of life.

1. Super boring.. emotionless,loneliness..whatsoever~
2. Full of problems. big responsibilites. sadness+anger will then lead to craziness. ignorance is not applicable

if you can choose, no 1 or 2? which one you prefer?

well, i need both. when your heart has too much painful, sometimes you need to be alone. eventhough it is endlessly boring, it is necessary to heal the pain, to erase the scar. and you would always have time to pray and silently whispered to yourself, "everything will be okay, you are a big girl now. you know what to do. Allah will always be close to you"..

but please. don't choose to live in hatred.don't keep your feeling bottled up. Or you will end up hurting a person that loves you the most.

and i am begging,please..

[this is not my love story.. this is my life]

STATIK

Assalamualaikum.

It is march 2010 rite now. how fast time flies. after my last post, i went to Johor for 3months. Having a great time there. I met new friends. create new memories. I stayed at UTM. yes, i have once dreamt to study there while i was in school. such a beautiful place. i will miss this place. erm. ayat berbunga ni mmg memenatkan. okay next paragraph plis~

Guess what? okay.. i am not working yet..
i ask again. GUESS WHAT ? haha. i am a tutor!!

for those who are my good friends. they would say, "WHAT?"
but for those who have a blood related with me, they would hug me and say, "welcome to the club!" "yeah, that's my girl! im proud of you"~ or "AT LAST, pheww~"

explaination why they have two different reactions.

location 1: village5 UTP (undergrad )

my friend: gee, aku tak paham la soklan ni. aja aku leh? ko kan dewi.
me : um. yang mane.o yang ni. ak pon tak paham. huahuahua. okay jap. um. cane nak explain ea. [smbil tu conteng2 kat paper.. staring at those paper.. end up blur].. ko paham x ak tulis ni?
my friend: [staring at those paper silently].. Gee, senang cite.bak ah assignment ko.
me : la.. xckp awal2. hakhak.. xyah pening2.
my friend: okay ak da paham. cet, senang je. maceh gee.

location 2: umah ALam Damai terchinta

(ini bukan dialog)

mak: cikgu math yang bertukar menjadi cikgu biologi yg hebat
kembar : cikgu lepasan math yg serba boleh, ajar sejarah, geo, bm..
kakak: pernah berangan nak jadi lecturer. but stuck with petronas
and my mak2 sedara: majoriti cikgu dlm pelbagai bidang.

what im trying to say.. i have those blood. the teaching blood. but unfortunately im not a good one. and i realized that since my primary school. i kept on avoiding this career.

"oh mak, plis,let me be what i wanna be.." "kamu nak jadi ape?".. "anything but a teacher"..

Location:UTP

i am currently tutoring 1st year student, statics & dynamics subject.every friday. they are my first students. kesian mereka. hhehehehe... wish them luck!